unusuall

Way back when I moved from childcare to the public school we were invited to attend a class about
Applied Behavior Anyalisis. The main thing we learned read drilled into our heads over and over and over again was how to operationally define a behavior. Instead of say Brian was clapping his hands it was Brian would put his hands open face palms together which resulted in a sound he did this 25 times. It was annoying but also an interesting way to look at behaviors. Every behavior had to be observable and measurable a couple other criteria that I can't remember but don't tell anyone okay.
So really telling you this will be an unusual  post I've got nothing except it is 2:30 and I'm writing the post on my phone.

• I had my wisdom teeth pulled yesterday. It went surprisingly well. Due to way high Anxiety I had to be put under with anesthesia,this made me even more nervous and then google made me even more nervous. 
• I spent the week before trying to erase myself from my house /my friends/ my family. I tried to do all my laundry so my husband wouldn't have to if I passed away. I wouldn't pick my fantasy football team (  I let it auto draft) so they could just delete if necessary. Why leave them with that memory of how much fun we have on draft day.
• I asked for the "snow contest" to be postponed into Wednesday.
• I realized I goofed it is not the way to life. I could go back to counseling and maybe I should just once in a while to check in. Anticipatory Anxiety is the worst. 

Enough about that 

• I did have several friends check on me during my recovery. I'm annoyed one co worker txt me to tell me she heard a rumor about my placement for the following school year. The mom of the student of who I may be "assigned" texted my friend who I was etc etc. 
• This assignment leaves me disappointed and going down the woe as me path however I will just take it as it comes.

Did I tell you ??

• I will now be babysitting a new family after the school day.
• The previous family is moving schools and logistically it won't work.
• The previous family mentioned to their friends that they wouldn't be able to use me and before I even knew I was out of one job I was picking up another family. I was also declining invitations to 2 more families.
• This new family knows me from the child care center and was impressed with the fact I wad always the picture of calm. I had to laugh. 

Which leads me to...

• The fact that many times this summer I was given compliments about my style with children.
• Even when I quit the extra part time job the boss tried to tell me she thought I was doing a great job, that I couldn't be perfect and I had a tough client.
• How many times do we ignore the compliments and pay way too much attention to the complaints ? 

Oh boy 3 am and I'm still not ready for bed. Good thing I'm just recovering at my parents tomorrow. Please excuse any errors